I am not the most personable girl in the world, not even in my
town. Ask my neighbors if they know me and most of them would prolly reply,
"Who's that girl?"
There’s not a chance in this lifetime that I’ll ever win a Ms.
Congeniality award. I don’t indulge
myself in chatting or texting simply because I’m not really fond of them. I can be all by myself -- regress in my own
world -- and be happy about it. It doesn’t
mean that I don’t socialize, because I do.
It’s just that, I can never say “I’m
your friendly neighborhood, Spider-Girl.”
As what I’ve mentioned few sentences back, I’m not the biggest
fan of chat or texting. I was busy watching
Animes when everyone else was into mIRC.
When texting became a fad, Counter-Strike was there to keep me company. While a lot of clans are forming here and
there, EBs became such an ‘in thang’,
and Nokia was the hot commodity back then – I really cared less so long as I
can shoot some heads with my AWP or Carbine (in-game of course. :3).
Having said all those, you must’ve already developed a sense
that I am more in love with my hobbies than socializing in general. Good guess!
I’m not saying I can’t be friendly or that I am a complete snob because
I can be a good friend but not everybody’s friend. It’s something that I can never keep up with;
I simply can’t sustain that amount of energy needed to be friends with everyone.
And since I am into gaming – though not a hardcore gamer – there
will always be people who would like to make friends with me especially when
they find out I’m a girl. And gaining online
friends isn’t exactly a bad thing; you meet different people from different
ages, groups, ethnicity, and whathaveyou.
Thanks to MMORPGs and online Forums, I became more sociable towards the
online community. But please don’t
expect a 180 degree turn from me, maybe just 45 degrees or even less (lol).
So ‘nuff with the long introduction (say what now?!) and let’s move on to the real point of this blog
entry…
There was this guy from India whom I met while playing Defense
of the Ancient 2 (DOTA2). Maybe we
played once then he heard I’m a girl and added me to his friendlist which isn’t
exactly new to me. A huge portion of my
friendlist is people I don’t even know and just added me on the fly,
specifically after they hear me talk over the mic. Now, going back to that guy from India, I wasn’t
able to capture our entire conversation but at least I got this:
The thing is, he messaged me yesterday and I failed to reply
because I was in-game. He mentioned I hurt
his feelings by not replying even if I was done playing. I was ready to apologize about hurting his
feelings but he’s just making a big deal about this. He made a point that I was obliged to reply
to him because I’m his ‘friend’. And even if I said I was busy now (Yeah, I’m reading stuff about The Hunger
Games and I don’t like being bothered when I’m reading. Get over it. Lol), he
still kept on bugging me. I even frankly
told him to give me some space, I don’t want to talk to you, you’re annoying,
etc.; to which, all my pleas have fallen in deaf ears. Even if I stopped replying altogether, he
would still press on his issues with me not replying. He even specifically said that he ‘expects’
me to reply when he messages me. Just wow.
There are just three things I want to say:
1.
Man up! You’re too sensitive
and overly dramatic for your own good. Not
cool, man. Not cool.
2.
I get it, I hurt your feelings but duuuuuude~, don’t try and
force me to change for you, we’re not that close. And even if we are, you got to accept me for
who I am which includes (my number three);
3.
If I ask you to give me some space (meaning I don’t want to talk to you because you’re either annoying or I’m
not in the mood), then give me my goddamn effin’ space.
Note: I tried dumbing down my words as much as I can for the
benefit of others who are either intellectually lightweight or may have
difficulty in English. And I’m sorry for
being mean, I’m just pissed.
XoXo
